Sunday, April 10, 2011


Abba, where do I go from here?
Oh, I said I would run hard after Your heart, I said I would be faithful, I said I would forego any obstacle for the sake of beholding You....

I said these things, and then my knees caved in.

And now how can I run after You?

I see You vaguely in the distance, and I see Your children dance around You,
And now how can I dance with You too?
I am still yet far away, hearing You faintly.. muffled whistles in the wind
and not sure if You hear me.. muffled cries into the earth

Abba, where do I go from here?
All I long for is for You to come to my rescue, to carry me in my weakness, to affirm me of Your Love..
because You still love me, don't You?
My heart could not abandon You, even with this distance,
My memory fights to recollect the beautiful words of Life...
My troubled soul argues with my hopeful spirit, and Your Spirit always wins...

Will You fight for me, Abba?  You always win...

I am frail, how can I run after You?
Come and run after me...

Jesus did not say: you shall not be troubled, you shall not be tempted, you shall not be distressed.  But He said: you shall not be overcome.

- Julian of Norwich


currently reading: The Lessons of St. Francis by John Michael Talbot
currently listening: an assortment of Gregorian chants

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